Mistake

Gosh, the way I say things are so wrong sometimes.

I said " I can't tahan when I get lower score than you and Josephine."

Then I realized that my sentence meant something else which I didn't mean it.

When people hear this, they might think that I'm trying to say that they're not that good and I'm smarter than them.

I didn't mean it that way AT ALL.

What I was trying to say is that I always put them as my opponent.

Someone who I want to challenge my marks with.

I succeeded a few times so I was happy.

But suddenly my marks got lower so I can't tahan myself.

I can't tahan myself as in, why didn't I work harder?

Oh gosh, I hope people don't get whatever I say/said in the wrong way.

I always have this problem.

Whenever I try to explain myself after a mistake I made like this, people just think that I'm just trying to cover up for myself.

O.O

Quit it, stop confusing me!

I love you dad!!

Gosh, I feel so bad for my dad :(

He gets all the lecturing from my mum for what he bought for us (like new bags, shoes and shirts) and we just enjoy what he bought.

Even worse, I threw tantrum on him today and yesterday.

It's like something I hardly do to him and I just did it 2 days in a row :(

My mum is still giving him lecturing outside the living room.

I feel like going out there and say:

"Stop blaming daddy! It's all our fault. I'll promise that I'll stop asking for things anymore."

I'm so sorry daddy.

I love you!!

Your contact name in my handphone is 'dad-VIP' ever since years ago :)

Forgive me if I didn't pick up your phone because my phone is always on silence.

I'll promise to make you a real nice card.

I'll thank you for what you gave me and how much you love us and I'll apologize for throwing tantrum and gives you trouble.

Decisions

My dad just gave me 2 options.

1. Study in New Zealand for 3 years

2. Study in Monash here and he'll buy me a new car

I guess I'll apply for both Uni and decide later on.

At first my dad wanted me to go New Zealand because he thinks that I can improve my English there and can be more independent.

But later on, he suddenly worry that I might work there or get married there and will not come back to Malaysia.

He kept asking me questions this morning in KLCC about whether will I get a married there or work there.

He even wanted to skip the NZ edu fair this morning because he says he wants to reconsider.

I got angry and kind of make him to bring me to the edu fair.

After the edu fair, we went to see Monash.

Then he brought me to see cars.

I want Hyundai Accent but my mum ask me to get i10.

Actually, I'm pretty sure that I can get Accent if I manja my dad but I think it's better for me to just listen to my mum.

Monash is so far away so I tell my dad that I want to stay at the hostel if I study there but he don't allow.

He scared I might learn bad things from others XD

That's what contributed him the idea of getting me a car :P

I have no idea what I want.

There're reasons why I want to stay and there're also many reasons why I want to go NZ.

GAH!!! I guess I'll only decide this if both uni accepts me.

For now, I should study hard and get good grades.

Please help me oh Lord. I hope both uni will accept me.

Saturday

I'm seriously pissed off whenever my parents and my brother come in to my room and say I'm playing computer.

Whenever I'm just doing my assignments or on fb asking questions, they still say I'm playing.

So annoying -.-

Anyway, I realize I always say things I don't mean it.

Sometimes I tend to say no but inside my heart is the opposite. Or the other way round.

I think I hurt a lot of people by doing so.

Especially my little brother.

I feel so bad.

I'm so scared he might think that I seriously dislike him because I always ask him to get out of my room, when he joke with me I don't laugh, when he want to

show me something cool and I just show him a blank face, etc.

Well, I always treat him like that when I'm frustrated or tired from college.

What made me feel bad is that he listens to me whenever I talk to him and share most of his stuff to me and I'm almost like the opposite.

Forgive me my little brother.

Remember, your sis love you okay?

You're a great brother although sometimes you're such a pain to me :)

At least I know you won't leave me no matter what.

Just watched Rising of the Ape World at e@ Curve just now. My family and I went to Bubba Gump to have dinner before the movie starts. My brother and I ordered a drink which was very cool :D

I love the colour :)

*I want an answer to my question.*

What I wanted

Hmm..

At first I wished that my father will buy me either an iPad or an iPhone before I leave Malaysia and go to New Zealand.

But come to think, the fees for uni is already so expensive.

I shouldn't ask for those things.

I'm already so blessed because my dad can afford to allow me to study overseas.

I should be happy with what I have and should not ask for more unless they're necessary :)

Feels

There're just times that I feel so empty in heart.

It's like I don't belong to anywhere.

Or just feel unimportant.

Or maybe insecure.

It's obvious that if I tell one of my friends how I'm feeling right now, they'll probably do not know what to say.

Actually it's simple.

I just want to hear "It's alright, we're here for you." with a hug.

Things can be so much better, isn't it :)

One thing I hate the most

Don't try to boss me around if you ain't better than me.
If you are better than me, I'll obey and listen to you without any hesitation.

Something different for today (:

一天魔王抓走公主,公主一直叫.

魔王 ：「你尽管叫破喉咙吧...没有人会来救你的....」

公主 ：「破喉咙..破喉咙..」

没有人：「公主..我来救你了...」

魔王 ：「说曹操曹操就到...」

曹操 ：「魔王..你叫我干嘛..」

魔王 ：「哇勒..看到鬼」

鬼 ：「靠!被发现了..」

靠 ：「阿鬼,你看的到我喔...」

魔王 ：「Oh,My God!」

上帝 ：「谁叫我?」

谁 ：「没有人叫你阿...」

没有人：「我哪有？装蒜啊！」

蒜 ：「谁在装我？」

谁 ：「又说我？你们找麻烦啊？」

麻烦 ：「哪一个找我？」

哪一个：「找你？我才没有...咦，这儿有好多人。」

好多人：「我才刚到耶……你是谁？」

哪一个：「我才不是谁。」

谁 ：「他才不是我。」

公主 ：「大家都是来救我的吗？」

大家都：「我不是来救你的，是来看热闹的。」

热闹 ：「我有什麽好看的？」

上帝 ：「不关我的事，先走了。」

魔王 ：「你回答一个问题再走，为什麽这麽多人救公主？我这个魔

王怎麽演下去？」

下去 ：「你好好的魔王不干，演我做什麽？」

公主 ：「魔王若是没有人演，我就可以走了。」

没有人：「若是我演魔王，怎麽会让你走...」

怎麽会：「我才不让公主走，我要看热闹。」

热闹 ：「看我干什麽？」

什麽 ：「你居然要『干』我？流氓！」

你居然 :「我哪有？」

我 :「关我什麽事ㄚ?」

魔王 :「靠!我要疯了......。」

靠:「喊我干什么!...」

疯了 :「你要我干啥？」

你要我 :「我什麽都不知道ㄚ!」

我什麽都不 :「我哪知啊!」

我哪知 :「我在这里ㄚ!有人在叫我吗?」

有人：「我没有叫你啊!」

我没有：「谁叫他了啊?」

谁：「冤枉啊...我没有...」

我没有：「我可没冤枉你啊...」

你：「谅你也不敢。」

谅你：「谁说我不敢!?」

谁：「拜托啊...我什麽都没说啦」

我什麽都没：「你要我说什麽?」

我什麽都不：「...你...你不就是我那失散多年的兄弟吗?」

我那失散多年的兄弟：「拷...我名字取这麽长...也会被叫到

啊...」

谁：「...我要赶快离开这个是非之地」

是非：「原来这里是我的地盘啊...」

我什麽都不&没：「你们别吵我们在讲话啦...」

你们别吵我们：「我没有在讲话啊...」

我没有：「我才没有讲话咧!...」

我什麽都不：「-_-\\\"...走...我们到外面去聊...」

走：「人家不好意思啦...(扭捏)」

我什麽都没：「关你屁事啊...闪啦...」(两兄弟生气的走出去)

关你屁事：「呜...为什麽赶我走...」

为什麽：「我没有要赶你走啦...乖...不要哭」

我没有：「喔...又关我啥事了」

关我啥事：「啥?有人叫我吗?」

有人：「谁要叫你啊...」

谁：「我真的要走了...T.T」

走：「人家真的不好意思啦...*V.V*」(\\\"谁\\\"不支倒地)

关你屁事：「...你不是我表妹吗?」

关我啥事：「...表哥...好久不见啦...」

好久：「我不是在这里嘛...」

魔王：「你们有完没完？」

完没完：「他才没有我」

你们：「我才没有他」

我才：「谁说的？」

谁：「叫我干吗？」

吗：「你居然要干我？」

你：「我才不会干他」

我才：「谁说我不会？」

谁：「冤枉！我没说……」

说：「叫我干吗？」

吗：「你们俩真不要脸！」

你们俩：「我要！我要！」

脸：「谁要我？」

谁：「我不要啊」

魔王：「快一点，再说我可要撵人啦」

人啦：「赶撵我？找K」

K：「谁找我？」

谁：「aaaaaaa！别提我的名字，再提我也K他！」

他：「别K我」

我：「谁要K我？」

谁：「终于让我逮找一个啦，杀呀…………」

一个啦：「别逮我」

我：「我也受够啦，谁再提我的名字，我决不放过你！」

谁：「看我的降龙十八掌！」

我：「看我的九阴白骨爪！」

降龙十八掌：「我有什么好看的？」

九阴白骨爪：「我有啥好看的？」

什么好看的：「兄弟，我终于找着你啦！」

啥好看的：「哥，咱出去聊。」

魔王：「妈的...这是认亲大会啊...」

从此以后，魔王真的得了精神分裂症……

Pavilion and Lot10

I need to study for exam so I'm just going to post photos for this 2 weeks. I'm so sorry. Hope you don't mind (: