I LOVE AUSCAT!

We're all in this together :)

WE ARE FAMILY!! :D

the way I appreciate friends

Hmm...

I don't know how to say this but...

I'm not a person who will buy sweets or chocolate from some club and send to my friends to show how much I appreciate them.

If you were my friends in WMS before, I think you guys know that I will always make something for all my friends with a message on it.

I always want to give my close friends something that they can keep and remember, not something that's not durable.

I felt so bad when people asked me why didn't I send them any friendship appreciation stuff sold by the clubs.

It's just that it's not the way how I appreciate my friends.

I hope all my friends will understand me.

Please do :)

Mistake

Gosh, the way I say things are so wrong sometimes.

I said " I can't tahan when I get lower score than you and Josephine."

Then I realized that my sentence meant something else which I didn't mean it.

When people hear this, they might think that I'm trying to say that they're not that good and I'm smarter than them.

I didn't mean it that way AT ALL.

What I was trying to say is that I always put them as my opponent.

Someone who I want to challenge my marks with.

I succeeded a few times so I was happy.

But suddenly my marks got lower so I can't tahan myself.

I can't tahan myself as in, why didn't I work harder?

Oh gosh, I hope people don't get whatever I say/said in the wrong way.

I always have this problem.

Whenever I try to explain myself after a mistake I made like this, people just think that I'm just trying to cover up for myself.

O.O

Quit it, stop confusing me!

I love you dad!!

Gosh, I feel so bad for my dad :(

He gets all the lecturing from my mum for what he bought for us (like new bags, shoes and shirts) and we just enjoy what he bought.

Even worse, I threw tantrum on him today and yesterday.

It's like something I hardly do to him and I just did it 2 days in a row :(

My mum is still giving him lecturing outside the living room.

I feel like going out there and say:

"Stop blaming daddy! It's all our fault. I'll promise that I'll stop asking for things anymore."

I'm so sorry daddy.

I love you!!

Your contact name in my handphone is 'dad-VIP' ever since years ago :)

Forgive me if I didn't pick up your phone because my phone is always on silence.

I'll promise to make you a real nice card.

I'll thank you for what you gave me and how much you love us and I'll apologize for throwing tantrum and gives you trouble.

Decisions

My dad just gave me 2 options.

1. Study in New Zealand for 3 years

2. Study in Monash here and he'll buy me a new car

I guess I'll apply for both Uni and decide later on.

At first my dad wanted me to go New Zealand because he thinks that I can improve my English there and can be more independent.

But later on, he suddenly worry that I might work there or get married there and will not come back to Malaysia.

He kept asking me questions this morning in KLCC about whether will I get a married there or work there.

He even wanted to skip the NZ edu fair this morning because he says he wants to reconsider.

I got angry and kind of make him to bring me to the edu fair.

After the edu fair, we went to see Monash.

Then he brought me to see cars.

I want Hyundai Accent but my mum ask me to get i10.

Actually, I'm pretty sure that I can get Accent if I manja my dad but I think it's better for me to just listen to my mum.

Monash is so far away so I tell my dad that I want to stay at the hostel if I study there but he don't allow.

He scared I might learn bad things from others XD

That's what contributed him the idea of getting me a car :P

I have no idea what I want.

There're reasons why I want to stay and there're also many reasons why I want to go NZ.

GAH!!! I guess I'll only decide this if both uni accepts me.

For now, I should study hard and get good grades.

Please help me oh Lord. I hope both uni will accept me.

Saturday

I'm seriously pissed off whenever my parents and my brother come in to my room and say I'm playing computer.

Whenever I'm just doing my assignments or on fb asking questions, they still say I'm playing.

So annoying -.-

Anyway, I realize I always say things I don't mean it.

Sometimes I tend to say no but inside my heart is the opposite. Or the other way round.

I think I hurt a lot of people by doing so.

Especially my little brother.

I feel so bad.

I'm so scared he might think that I seriously dislike him because I always ask him to get out of my room, when he joke with me I don't laugh, when he want to

show me something cool and I just show him a blank face, etc.

Well, I always treat him like that when I'm frustrated or tired from college.

What made me feel bad is that he listens to me whenever I talk to him and share most of his stuff to me and I'm almost like the opposite.

Forgive me my little brother.

Remember, your sis love you okay?

You're a great brother although sometimes you're such a pain to me :)

At least I know you won't leave me no matter what.

Just watched Rising of the Ape World at e@ Curve just now. My family and I went to Bubba Gump to have dinner before the movie starts. My brother and I ordered a drink which was very cool :D

I love the colour :)

*I want an answer to my question.*

What I wanted

Hmm..

At first I wished that my father will buy me either an iPad or an iPhone before I leave Malaysia and go to New Zealand.

But come to think, the fees for uni is already so expensive.

I shouldn't ask for those things.

I'm already so blessed because my dad can afford to allow me to study overseas.

I should be happy with what I have and should not ask for more unless they're necessary :)

Feels

There're just times that I feel so empty in heart.

It's like I don't belong to anywhere.

Or just feel unimportant.

Or maybe insecure.

It's obvious that if I tell one of my friends how I'm feeling right now, they'll probably do not know what to say.

Actually it's simple.

I just want to hear "It's alright, we're here for you." with a hug.

Things can be so much better, isn't it :)

One thing I hate the most

Don't try to boss me around if you ain't better than me.
If you are better than me, I'll obey and listen to you without any hesitation.